The Full Stop podcast shares the experiences of involuntary childless individuals
The podcast began in 2019 when Michael, Sarah and Berenice created a plan which was long-listed for the BBC Rachel Bland award. We decided to hit record, determined to raise awareness of childlessness. In 2023, we became a CIC and opened our online Community to secure the long-term future of our library of voices. We are proud to have won awards from IPSE and Digital Women.
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What our listeners say
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I met Sarah recently and wanted to support the wonderful work you are doing in helping the childless feel less alone. Thank you x
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Listening for the first time with the pregnancy loss episode. I have known Lori since 2008, just after my own traumatic loss of twins at 20 weeks. She has been an immense support and a dear friend. Glad she was got the opportunity to contribute to this important discussion.
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Thank you, a relief to hear stories from lots of different perspectives. Love what you do and the effort you all make to help us to be seen.
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Meet the presenters and founders
Left to right: Michael Hughes, Berenice Howard-Smith and Sarah Lawrence, St Pancras, London October 2023
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Founder and Director
“It’s been one hell of a life changing journey over the past five and a half years in terms of my infertility and ultimate childlessness.
Not content with having one fertility wrecking condition, I had two. I’d struggled for years with health problems, that none of the ‘experts’ identified. It wasn’t until my miscarriage in 2012, that I was taken seriously and would ultimately be diagnosed with stage four Endometriosis in 2014.
I’m going to be honest, my mental health has always been a bit shaky, but after the miscarriage, I hit my lowest point...or so I thought. Because, less than two years later I was told there would be no children during a 10 minute consultation. It was then that I truly became familiar with what it feels like to hit rock bottom.
What got me through it? Counselling, soul searching and a level of bloody mindedness that even surprised me. I wasn’t going to be beat by this thing, even though there have been times that I’ve felt like it was going to.
However, that’s not the end of my story because just one year after being told I’d never have children of my own, my symptoms started to return. I was then diagnosed with Adenomyosis in 2015- a similar condition to Endometriosis, but it manifests in the muscular lining of the womb. It meant yet more procedures to hold off the symptoms and the inevitable hysterectomy. It was only ever going to be a short term fix and so ultimately I had to have this serious piece of surgery in November 2017. Hello again rock bottom!
While I was back down there for a while, by this time, I had already decided that financial services wasn’t where I wanted to be. I wanted to contribute and give back to my community. I’m now a qualified counsellor. I can give back to my community because I want to be able to support and empower people going through this difficult and painful process.”
Sarah takes care of all our admin and guest bookings. She also checks our content for appropriateness and brings her counselling skills and inclusivity to The Full Stop. She is also a trained trauma counsellor at After The Storm.
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Founder and Director
I’ve been through 6 rounds of failed IVF and have recurrent miscarriages. I have suffered with PTSD. Counselling changing my life but so did finding good friends. That helped me to be more open about my losses and that enabled me to ‘feel’ my grief.
I’ve hit the very lowest point and struggled with hanging onto this life for a while. I am not less, but more for my journey. Like you.
Attending Fertility Fest in 2018 where I met Michael was an important part of my recovery. A year later I met Sarah at Fertility Fest 2019.
Like you, I get good days and bad days. The podcast was a good day idea!
In 2013, I completed a Masters degree in Graphic Design and Typography which lead to the creation of a social design project Walk In Our Shoes, based on research to attitudes in the media about childlessness.
I am training with The University of Cambridge to become a qualified coach in June 2024.I live with the rescue dog who rescued me, Lady Molly Lickalot. Along with Michael, I’m a proud World Childless Week champion. I’m a Mental Health First Aider and collaborate with Cambridge University Press and Assessment on DEIB.
I’ve spoken at Fertility Fest and won awards at the Cambridgeshire Digital Awards and listed as One to Watch by Cofinitive and a Digital Women award winner. I’m part of Women Who Code, and UX design group IXDA. I am passionate detangling design and run a design practice called Hello Lovely.
Berenice brings her design and tech skills to The Full Stop as the creator of the brand and website. She also edits the newsletter and looks after social media. -
Founder and Director
I’m one half of a childless couple that have as we like to say “made it through” but we didn’t do it alone. Many years on the psychologists couch delving into the combined results of dysfunctional families, PTSD from childhood sexual abuse and depression from our childlessness helped us greatly.
On the other side of this we discovered a love of travel, that has taken us to many parts of the world this too helps us cope with being CNBC. It was the writing of a blog that I started on the eve of Mother’s Day 2016 at 1am in the morning in a motel off the i10 just outside of Quincy in Florida on one such trip that has led me to being part of this podcast.
It was from here we found a Facebook group ‘Childless Path To Acceptance’ that was full of women in our position. The warmth, support and love that flowed from this group opened our eyes to a wider world. It was 2018 on another adventure this time in the UK, in a Shepherds Bush pub, The Green, that we met Stephanie Phillips, the admin of the group, who went on to found World Childless Week, Berenice, and the courageous Sweetie Horne, who, just like my wife Vickie was scared of what was to come by opening themselves up, as we were all just about to venture into an event called Fertility Fest.
For those that like the more personal knitty gritty Vickie and I met when we were about 16 as we both had a casual job at the local McDonalds. I was new to Australia as my family had emigrated to Australia from the UK a couple of years before we met, Vickie on the other hand is a true ‘Skippy’. We married in our mid 20’s and started for a family closer to our 30’s and by 40 we had to draw a line in the sand to say, we’d never be parents. Of course there is much more to the story, but you’re going to have to listen to the podcast to find that out.
Michael edits the audio for our podcast and created the videos on our YouTube channel. He brings his unique voice to our work, and speaks for men who are childless not by choice. Read his Married and Childless blog and watch his videos.
Disclaimer
The Full Stop podcast and content posted by The Full Stop Community CIC is presented solely for general information, and educational purposes. The guests’ views may not represent those of the Full Stop Community CIC, online community members or the co-directors. The use of information on this podcast or materials linked from this podcast or website is at the user’s own risk. It is not intended as a substitute for the advice of a physician, professional coach, psychotherapist, or other qualified professional, diagnosis, or treatment. Users should not disregard or delay in obtaining medical advice for any medical or mental health condition they may have and should seek the assistance of their healthcare professionals for any such conditions.